Within a couple hours, I’m supposed to be going on a cruise with my folks. I remember I was scared of flying, but it was no biggie when I actually flew, So the same should apply here. …-Sigh.- I miss Lucy very much still. And I’ve been thinking..What would happen, if by some chance, I did accomplish all of my dreams? My Dream as a songwriter, or my dream being a musician in general? What if she’s still alive now? What if she was still alive then? What if I saw her on the boat that I’m going to be living on for the next seven days? How could I approach her? How could I even look her in the eyes? … How could I even be able to tell if it was her? …… I dunno….
Am I really going to get over Lucy? No other girl or guy in the world is willing to be with me. Even the Otaku find me unattractive. What does that mean for me? Does that mean that some people in this world are destined to be alone forever? I think so.
People say that love is out there for everyone, but is that really true? People die each and everyday with no one by their side to share their last breath with. When an accident happens, the only ones that will notice will be the ones that didn’t even acknowledge their existance until then. And even afterwards, They’ll go on forgetting that person soon after. Not everyone is met to have a happy ending where people celebrate one’s life. Some of us will be alone until the day we die, some of us having our deaths celebrated….
I wonder, Lucy… what would you do if you heard that I died..?